February 23, 2014
"You must have chaos in your soul to give birth to a shining star."

— Nietzche

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February 23, 2014

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February 18, 2014
Getting there! #homestudio

Getting there! #homestudio

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January 12, 2014
The Night Owl That I Am.

It is late, it is dark and it is quiet. This is my time. I nestle and become enclosed in my sanctuary. My mind shakes off the shackles of the daily grind, takes a moment to release the weight and is free to indulge in any and every impulse.
This cannot occur by waking up extra early in the morning, as my mind seems to work like a vintage engine. On start up, it is sluggish. It takes the whole day before it starts running smoothly. By bedtime it is purring like a kitten. It could also be due to the fact that I am greeted with responsibilities, deadlines and obligations as soon as I emerge from my slumber and by night I have fulfilled most of them, leaving me rubbing my hands together conniving creative pleasures that will massage the right side of my brain and dismiss the left.
In these late hours businesses are shut, people have gone home and everything feels rested. Any influencing energies seem distant, even inexistent. I feel as if I am on my own, acting like a naughty child who has defied their parents by doing what I wish, with no one to intervene.
These hours permit my freedom, grant me focus and allow inspiration to coax my third eye to open it’s lid, like the night owl that I am.

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January 12, 2014
Time Out.

Time Out.

January 12, 2014
"…a man must choose a path which will let his ABILITIES function at maximum efficiency toward the gratification of his DESIRES. In doing this, he is fulfilling a need (giving himself identity by functioning in a set pattern toward a set goal) he avoids frustrating his potential (choosing a path which puts no limit on his self-development), and he avoids the terror of seeing his goal wilt or lose its charm as he draws closer to it (rather than bending himself to meet the demands of that which he seeks, he has bent his goal to conform to his own abilities and desires)."

— Hunter S. Thompson

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December 10, 2013
Desire & Fear - Hand in Hand.

Today I read Steven Pressfield’s ‘The War of Art: Breaking through the Blocks and Win your Inner Creative Battles.' and found this quote:

"Are you paralysed with fear? That’s a good sign. Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what to do… Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates the strength of Resistance. Therefore, the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that the enterprise is important to us and the growth of our soul… If it meant nothing to us, there’d be no Resistance."

Reading this articulated more concisely what I had realised and written about three years ago. Reading this book today, awakened forgotten wisdom and that I need to be more aware of the ‘Resistance’ side of things, as this appears to be my weakness. It was a nice reminder.

Here is what I wrote three years prior to reading this book:

Desire and Fear - Hand in Hand.

My desires, I have come to realise, are also my fears. What a bitch. 

It seems to me, in order to get what you want you have to be confronted by, surrender and let go of all fears. This problem is maximised by the additional confrontation, surrendering and letting go of ideals necessary to overcome these fears in order to experience your desires unhindered. This a battle of Self. One declared at any stage of potential progression. 

When confronted I tend to shut my eyes, block my ears and sing ‘la la la la la’. I fight. I fight really damn hard. My unhealthy friendship with denial grants me blissful ignorance, a pseudo strength. I just seem to keep resisting until the confrontation is so great that I am literally forced to my knees and made to surrender to the inevitable. Or, if I have enough reason or feeling to run on impulse, I might be fortunate to bypass this kind of pressure all together.  I’m a girl who needs a bone, something to work with so my intuition can kick in, rather than leaving my mind weaving some elaborate plan, which is ultimately doomed to fail as it’s not designed for the moment I might find myself in. Back in the day alcohol and drugs would be the answer to taking down the inhibitions because everything felt greeeaat! However, most of the time these views were too exaggerated or simply not taken seriously. This then could be used as an excuse to back track but the foot prints of this venture would remain. Today, I’m sober. In the absence of courage I must rely on adrenaline-fueled impulse, strong support and being in the moment to overcome these fears. A period of silence is also required so that I have time to be honest with myself, to dismiss my denial and to simply grow a pair to speak my truths.

The fear is terrifying. It summons doubt and slows me down. As ugly an emotion it is, it really is an ingenious indicator to the strength of your desire. So here is my gage: When petrified and I’m still stepping closer to the desire, its going to be well worth it. If I’m standing still terrified, then there is a question mark. This means a time of silence or heightened awareness is needed. If I’m running away and hiding, then I am simply not ready.

December 10, 2013
Indignant to their Captivity. 

Indignant to their Captivity. 

December 10, 2013
Chained to Depression.

Chained to Depression.

December 10, 2013
Who would have thought…
Quote from Steven Pressfield.

Who would have thought…

Quote from Steven Pressfield.

December 4, 2013
Rose.

Rose.

December 4, 2013
Wild Thing.

Wild Thing.

December 3, 2013
#zenandtheartofmotorcyclemaintenance.

#zenandtheartofmotorcyclemaintenance.

October 11, 2013
An insightful read

An insightful read

January 3, 2013
Best Christmas present. A Reverie Harp. Beautifully addictive and calming :)

Best Christmas present. A Reverie Harp. Beautifully addictive and calming :)

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